Timed checked: 3:11 pm

well yesterday afternoon went to jurong west there for dinner then went to see my cousin's grandfather in the singapore gerneral hospital...well he is quite better now just that when we went there he is still in the intensive care unit will be changing to a normal ward today......
but when i saw my youngest cousin cried when he sees his grandfather, i suddenly think of my grandfathers....well both of my grandfathers have already passed away....so when i look how my cousin treat his granfather i felt so..... sad that i cant treat my grandfather that way le...cos they have already passed away....was thinking when i am still a 1 year old kid every week i have to go a child care cos parents both working then one day my mother's father saw how pitiful i am he talk to my grandmother to look after me.....but when his around at home i tend to beat him or bully him....hais regret now that i never even treated him nicely and now he is no longer on earth.....hais......sad now......

Labels: regret lotz.......

TImed Checked : 9:11PM



well yesterday was my maid's last day becos somethingy happen in her country thus she need to go back well yesterday 4+ when to the airport to bring her catch her flight her flight was about 6:35AM so send her in liao went for MAC'donalds breakfast woohoo~ eat fish burger and 2 hashbrown hahax so nice siahh the hashbrown so went home after that sleep till 11+ dad called us to wake up..went to JP eat lunch then went to Golden village with my sis to watch the TOY STORY 3(3D) nice lehhs the show so funny.....then went out went to the new Fairprice market to look for my mother hance we went to 399 again to my some market things buy all the thingys liao went to zhu lin arund there to have a good dinner be4 going home.......



then today was my second cousin's birthday he held a party at his house so went there arund 12+ hang around then keep on carrying this cute little baby. then eat cake le jiu go home le....

Labels: overdue post....

Timed checked: 5:35PM

Why can't parents treat their own kids equally???
why can't they give their love equally???
why must they look after the child when they dont love them so much?????
why must they be like this to tell their own kids that they like their younger syster or brother more then they love HIM/HER?????
why must they tell such a hurtfull thing to us????
since you gave birth to us then you must love us equally not to be sooo biased right!!!!!!
and please stop asking me to give in when you heard from the shows that if i were to give in then dont regret that i will hate my siblings more then you expected me to do....
becos you are the cos of it right....
so what if i cry non stop and been a naughty girl when i am still a baby can i help with that?????
NO!!!!
how the hell i know that i cannot be so naughty....
whatsmore this is beyond my control!!!!!!!
so when you know that i am so naughty then you might as well .... me then it will save you alot of trouble then to take care of me and listen to me crying non stop everyday!!!!
dont you know that by telling me such a thingy will cos me to go and .... myself???
it is lucky that i have decided to stay strong...
if not then you will be praying to me, burning jos sticks for me already.......
why must you say all this hurtfull things to me??
WHY MUST PARENTS BE LIKE THIS!!!???
by saying all this things will you feel better???
when ever i think about all this i will feel very sad and tends to cry.... well i dont think you will feel like this......
I HOPE THAT ONE DAY THIS THINGYS WILL CHANGE AND MAKE A BETTER LIFE FOR ME!!!!

Labels: Why must parents be like this???? dont really understand why??? can someone tell me...

TImed Checked : 9:14 PM

well a few more days then will be going to malaysia......dont really feel like going becos well this is what i feel after the aspire camp that is it is better to go for a camp with your peers better than those who is younger then you or even older than you seriously....well after that camp i really have this kind of mindset so it makes me dont feel like it going for the camp......

stupid idiot shout at me machiam i got do something bad to you siahh.... just asking you about the thingy you have in your hand must you talk to Go to hell larhhs you shit you!!!!!!!!!! somemore how the hell i know i also got siahh well! shyt you!!!!!!!! go and eat shit larhhs!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!!! i will remember your short cut name forever derhh!!!!!

Labels: Don't shout and show people your anger unless they really did something wrong ..... if not they will remember you and your name forever....

Timed checked : 9:09 PM

Well it has been how many days since i am back from my batam camp it feels like now....I hate this feeling now seriously how i wish the days that we were in batam are much more longer...seriously speaking i really enjoyed my days there in batam did not think about my family members seriously first time siahh.....wth -.- i almost forget about them already lehhs so can you imagine how fun was it OMG~ MISSDIETHEKIDS!!!!!! well hope they will study hard and be a good girl or a good boy will visit them when i go to batam the next time...well last week's feeling seems like this week lehhs hais nothing to post liao keep thinking about the time there and the fun i had there really dont know what to write siahh............

well thinking of giving up in you,
should i do that???
or should i still continue untill the day you come to me by yourself??
but will you come to me??
will we have a chance in the future???
i dont want to give up on you seriously,
but from what i heard.....
i really dont know what to do??
I AM LOST!!!
out of a sudden.......
why must you be like that??
why cant you just give me a chance??
or give it a try??
dont understand you.....
please....... dont be so mean can!

Labels: never ever underestimate a guy who is innocent and quite....

Timed checked : 8:24 PM







HIIIeeee....... i'm back!

ON the monday....

well was have so much fun there, on monday which means the first day....car to school early in the morning reach abt 6+ then seat down at the foyer waiting for the rest of the students to arrive and also waiting for the bus to come.....talk wif kai hui, look around to kill the time...not long the bus arrive so bused to harbourfront the journey itself took us abt 1 hour to reach so inside the bused listen to songs took some picz hahax :D reached harbour the instructors gave us abt 15-30 minutes bahhs i think to do our last shopping here so ZoW3ll , K@1 Hu1 and me when to the cheers down there to be a clown talk craps and laugh making a fool out of our selfs there hahax and surprise the joker iz me hello hahax skip skip~ went on board the ferry jet-raider seat wif k@i hui, me then Zow3ll guess who seat beside zow3ll hahax is instructor Alvin the duration was 1 hours so all of us took out our MP3 to listen then took out handphones to take photos of our selfs inside the ferry and the view of the ocean well not really the ocean larhhz....then instructor wants to see my phone so lend him lorxx while he is looking at my photos me and k@i hui was laughing non stop siahh i also dont why what am i laughing at well maybe him bahz......blah blah blah reached the stop and he tot that it is our stop so he ask all of us to get down the ferry when all the other ppl is out of this ferry le, then he go and check come back and tell us to seat back cos this is not the alighting point for us all of us was like chey! so go back to our seats never listen to songs le cos only 20 minutes nia so look at the view of the ocean again lorxx........ then reached our destination liao same thingy wait for the rest of the passengers to come out of the ferry first not long all of us were out of the ferry and into the immigration but we never go through the check point we just assemble and walk pass it and let the thingy check our bags before moving off to the resort.....we walk about 5 minutes from the ferry terminal to the harris resort..reach le we went to their assembly area to gether and count our 'strength' this strength means our group members......started off with tent pitching and field cooking we cooked maggie noodles with some hotdogs and baked beans if i am not wrong...well the some of them in my group help out with the cooking one of them was the little boy aka yi long then the rest of the boys and the girls will continue the tent pitching.... pitch finish le all of us help by putting all our bags inside our tents the girls will put in to the pink colour one then the boys will put into their gaint tent.. actually wrong liao lorxx cos the girls got more numbers then the boys lehh so should be girls using their tent and they will use our tent de lorx hais sua~ anyway i dont think so we are really going to sleep into the tent cos according to one of the teacher's itenery wrote we are going to sleep inside the tent till 3AM then proceed on to our rooms lehh hais so ma huan lorxx...after field cooking all of us when to get change into our dirty clothes and our dirty shoes that we wanna throw away liao becos up next we are going for a jungle trail OMG once i heard that i told myself die liao lorxx confirm de so went over to Mr paul lim to tell him that i cannot get myself muddy cos of some reasons i dont wish to elaborate on......so he said ok lorxx remember to tell the instructors horxx then i replied him ok so when on to catch up with kai hui they all...walk, cross the roads then they ask us to run faster untill some of our shoes were stuck into the Dirty old muddy! was crying cos dont wish to move on with the muddy old sand le will like suck my shoes in like that lehh! OMG!!! then ok lorxx fall out and follow the teacher to take the longer route in order to get close to the rest of the students..... then saw them at the other end maybe crossing the mud getting them selfs mudddy everywhere man! so cute lorxx all of them......the b3st part was they always find ways and means to touch the teachers with their dirty hands that makes me laugh and laugh non stop! ok skip skip back to the resort all of us were given only 1 hour 30 minutes like that to bath and change then proceeds on to the assembly area cos we are going to the visit the orphanage and to batam city square to buy somethings for them and gifts for our family! they gave us 1hour 30minutes to shop and eat our dinner so our group agree to eat this shop called breezy cafe order our food lehh waited for so long not even one food arrive infront of us so me , kai hui , nolvin and another 2 malay girls decided to go down and buy the kids things first so the rest of the group members will be waiting upstairs for the food. then went back to the cafe and had our meals being serve and into our stomach then after eating me and kai hui decided to go down just to shop for some accesories for us and our friends but looking at all the shops not even one shop sells the thingys i want...so nevermund went to shop then saw this paticular shop selling dora $ and UNO cards lehh so cute so bought 1 each bought the first one the lady put the price for $25 000 then laTER part bought one more she less the price to $20 000 good right?? then after buying all the thingys kai hui and me we faster ran back to the assembly area to meet up with the rest and then all of us headed back to the harris resort then proceed to our where we pitch our tents and change wash up and go to sleep till the middle of the night heard some sounds coming out from outside siahh then when we unzip the tent all of them could not sleep siahh all outside playing games and disturbing others hahax so come out also lorxx ask kai hui to take my slippers outside then when i am about to come out one of them shouted " instructors coming" all of us ran back into the tent and act to be asleep sleep siahh so cute lorxx then for a while nia all of them come out again and make alot of noise.weird siah so loud till teachers also hear nothing ?? nevermynd then tired liao jiu went back inside the tent while i am trying to catch my nap..nolvin came in and ask...what arhhs i forgot le then we told him that we have been bitten by the mosquito so he went around to look for the insect repellent to spray for us then aftermath went to sleep le...not long the camp chief ask all of us to wake up and pack up all the thingys liao when i look at my watch it is only about 1+ like that in the morning then he seat down there at the bench and wait for us to finish packing up our thingys and he only gave us i think not more then an hour lorxx hais so pack up le follow him to the Happy land there then he ask us if we remember the leadership 27 lines anot if remember just stand up and say one he will minus off i think 100 points from our punishment so we got about 1500 punishment then i forgot how much he less then we do about 50 times BUDDA CLAPS lehh then he say ok stop so any one of you here still remember the lines well frankly most of them dont know remember studying it le cos once he ask us to go back he straight away ask us go sleep marhhs so where got time to study the lines siahh?? so nevermynd lorxx we do about 300-400 larhhs then we got our room keys and off to sleep and baths first when we sleep i think it is about 5 + liao lorxx then whay whats more morning still need to wake up early to go inside the pool to built the ratf and play some water games inside..................

on the tuesday.......


was lying down on the bed dont want to wake up actually but sleep for a while only still wake up then for a while after the girls go and bath wake up le change go brush teeth then went down stairs to eat our morning breakfast in the hotel derh cafe took cereal and some baked beans to eat but then after eating the cereals dont feel like eating the baked beans le.. so gather at the lobby and off to the play key punch as it was raining heavily......so we went to the place where we bath there is a small squash court and a ping pong ball court so we use the pin pong ball court for group 1 and 2 as for 3 and 4 they will be using the squash court there well our main aim is to hit the record of 25 minutes and we made it when we run in they will start timing us until the last person in our group to go out of the court then the time will end...played the game non stop shouting out the names of the teachers and the instructors then shout thingys like sha , shiong arhhs and stuffs then have a sip of drink went back to the hotel brought food back to eat and watch show laugh and talk to each other then aftermath pack our stuffs inside the bag and bring down all the thingys as we are about to check out of the hotel to move in to holiday inn to stay. so we went to the orphanage to play the games with the kids there my group use their classroom upstairs when we went in we move all the tables and chairs to one side and started planning on what game to start first then follow by what game we want to play with them 3 games they are the little boy's game , eagle and chick , musical chair wahh when they play this they very cute sia the hold on to the chair and turn lehh so cute lorxx i never play like this be4...play finish gave them some fare well give and say goodbye after math went off to board the bus and left the place le........went back to the hotel do reflections then watch Alvin and soh hwee joke around and they act the annoying orange so funny siahh omg! laugh non stop lehhs then aftermath was about 9+ so went back to the conference room took our bags and off to the hotel we are going to stay in HOLIDAY INN OMG they say we are the first batch to stay in this hotel lorxx so fortunate sia OMG! so went to up to the hotel room was quite shocked and it will really be a unforgettable memory for me and i think my frens hais so unpacked our things i went crazii over the rooms and su ying went to take a bath then after bathing next was my turn then blah blah blah pei ying went to take a nap first leaving the TV on hahax so we off it for her then zow3ll went to brew tea again for me and her to drink....well i think she is addicted to brewing tea liao lorxx in the harris also she brew the tea hais well thnks ya! luvdieherliaozxc so we close the pei ying's room door talk, play , drink tea, talk about ghost story hahax really lehh then went into my room the 3 OF THEM STARTED JUMPING ON MY BED SIAHHH WTH -.- NEVER GROW UP DERH LEHHS! but then later part also addicted so jump on the bed with them actually dont want to sleep derh lorxx but what a nice bed right so bo bian lorxx went to sleep with zow3ll liao then towards our wake up time i was the first one to wake up lehh cos the room suddenly VERY COLD LEHH LIKE I TOT I WAS INSIDE THE FRIDGE LORXX one blanket also no use hais so try to go back and sleep but then once i wake up i cannot go back to sleep le just nice the alarm clock rings so zow3ll and me get out of the 'fridge' in other words our room and went out to take a look at the 2 clowns hahas to our surprise they were snoring like a ^(00)^ like that lorx so we gave them our blankets and we take turns to go and brush our teeths brush how liao call pei ying to wake up cos she last night never bath marhhs so ask her to wake up and go bath so that this two ^(00)^ can still snore for a while see i so good siah right they must really thank me man! hais then packed up all our things and set off downstairs for my breakfast then we go back to the harris resort for a game in the swimming pool actually we should be playing this game on tues but then raining so we pospone it to this day then on that day we play key punch woo hoo fun man!!! then last day help nolvin all to built the raft then went off back to singapore at about 4+ home sweet home at 5+........ the end of my whole trip! buai buai!!!

sign off,

Labels: Feed and Follow your heart, Fin, trust me you will never go wrong and will never regret.........

Timed CHecked : 8:53PM

Hais well today went back to school for our opening rehearsals from 8.30am to 5.30PM so long siahh but overall was quite fun becos we the ukelele group/band only come out once then we will go missing after that so first performance was lousy seriously speaking then the second one at least we improve a little bit larhhs but overall still failed lorx so majority of them wants to be out of this group so talk with our teacher and they will talk to our principal about it ..but me and qin ya will never give up on this ceremony derh lorx! Well we will still be celebrating the teachers day with this item just hope that the student council will approve......

Saw you this morning was overjoyed! but although i am overjoyed i will still have to take it as if i never see you or i dont know you! i am so sad really dont know why we from normal friends become like we dont know each other liao?? saw you while we were rehearsing for the second time same thought you was not there actually , then once the curtains open... The minute i saw you muhahahaha... i jiao luan shou ye luan le hahax....hope you did not noticed it! cos will feel shy derh le me! well that is also what i hope for to see you when i perform but one thing is that i will never look at your face cos once i look at you ..... hahax i will confused with the whole song hahax! well ok hope you will or you will not be there when i perform the next time okays! Tons of luvs!

Labels: Hop3 that you will n3v3r l3ave th3 school b3caus3 your l3aving is just a tortur3 to m3

TImed Checked : 9:00PM

Hmm~ well today went back to school for the last day of the I Aspire camp....overall was quite fun.. all the games and food they give us hais but the camp is only what two days like that. well the most enjoyable part was when they were shouting out who wins the 1 . 2 & 3 prize woo that was awesome man! well my group was only like what a 6 or 7 group we all got ourselfs a pack of snacks hahax.... well is the thoughts that counts! overall i love this camp very very much.....ok thats all folks nid to go rest liao cos tomolo will also be very busy.....

well saw you in school just now was very happy to see you in school too! but the sad thingy was that i am not able to talk to you cos i dont think so you will have the time to talk to me...but well it is really very good to see you in school although we are not an item but i will always hide in the dark and giving you the blessing and encouragement for your this coming 'o' levels exam! really dont want you to leave the school so much i much wants to keep you by my side everyday i go to school....you are the one who gave me the motivation to come to school and study, without you is just a ToRtUr3 t0 m3!

Labels: Hop3 that you will n3v3r l3ave th3 school b3caus3 your l3aving is just a tortur3 to m3